I am not sure when my interest in theatre began. Maybe it sparked off of annually going to the Nutcracker Ballet. Perhaps it came from my vivid imagination. Or perhaps because long ago my favorite movie was the stage taping of Peter Pan. Anyway that it happened, I love the theatre. I love watching plays, whether they are professional or high school productions. I feel in love with Wicked and still know many of the songs from Les Miserables, that my high school put on two years before I entered it. Each of the plays strikes something within me. They all have such a soul and feeling behind them. They are basically life size books. I love books and I love plays because they take the work out of picturing a story and bring it before you eyes.
Ever since eight grade I have been dying to be in a semi lead role. Or lead. When I reached high school that only escalated. But I have remained in the back round. Freshman year I was a simple extra, this year I managed a dancing part. I always wanted to be a dancer, but my mom wouldn't go for it. But I love dancing, it is so cool. But I digress....These past play try outs I was cut form a very small casting pool. Not a big deal, so many were in the same boat as I. And those plays turned out wonderfully, so no harm done.
And yet, I feel almost as though I am standing center stage and holding a pose, waiting for a spotlight. But alas, it is burnt out and the curtain is stuck. My show will not go one. I do not want to complain, I am not a undiscovered star. I have just fallen into the sin of want. I want the limelight but it is turned on another. I have accepted now that I am going to humbly step back and clap during their bows.
I still have time to grow into a better actress, who knows, maybe one day I will have a little spotlight. But I am pledging now to stop complain for feeling sorrow about my broken spotlight. I will just preform in the dark and maybe someone with good eyes will see me. The theatre is still a magical place and I will never stop singing songs from musicals. I just shall be a bit more graceful now.
It is like a famous line from The Fantasticks,
"There are no small actors, only small parts" - Henry
I am not a small actor, I just receive small parts. That is all there is too it.
2 comments:
weeeirdo...isn't the real thing, there are no small parts, only small actors? i have no idea...i mean, i know he said it your way in the play, but henry is a weird character. (i'm henry the eighth i am...)
Hi Carrie! :D
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